I don't wannt work!
When talking with my European friends about "JOB", I often feel ashamed.
It seems they enjoy their jobs, unlike me. I hate mine. I hate working for my current company!! In Korea, it's common to hear friends say things like, “I don’t want to work,” or “It’s so hard to make a living,” and no one bats an eye. But when I told my European friends how I felt, they simply said, “If you don’t like your job, find another one!”
That response shocked me. I felt embarrassed, like I was being immature just for speaking up. That’s when I decided to start looking for a job where I could actually feel more at ease.
The Hopeful Turn That Didn’t Last
I eventually found another job and I somewhat enjoyed working in that company. But unfortunately, it was a fixed-term contract for only a year and a half. After that, I had to move on.
Since then, I’ve worked at three different companies, but none of them made me feel any happier. I kept chasing something better, hoping to find a decent job, but somehow I ended up stuck at a place I honestly can’t stand. Every day feels dull and pointless—like I’m just going through the motions and wasting my time..
Burnout and Helplessness
Right now, all I want is to quit my job and rest at home, doing nothing. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I’m just so exhausted—mentally and physically.
“I just wanna disappear from this world!!”
Of course, deep down, I still believe I won't run away, but rather I’ll find another job. That said, I can’t pretend this past year hasn’t been miserable. On top of that, just in the last two weeks alone, I’ve worked over 55 hours per week—which is illegal even here in Korea.
A Broken System and Impossible Demands
The company I work for is in manufacturing, but it doesn’t keep any inventory at all. We produce everything on a day-to-day basis and ship it out the very next day, so there’s zero buffer. The pressure is non-stop, and things are getting out of control. Delays are piling up, and buyers are calling me nonstop—literally every few minutes—asking if they’ll receive their items today. It’s insane.
Judging by how we operate, our cash flow must be a mess. Even though it’s a global company, I seriously doubt its financial stability. The fact that we don’t hold stock is already a red flag. Buyers keep calling, and all I can say is, “We’re still checking on the production schedule.” But the truth is, no one tells me anything. No one responds, and production schedules change constantly because of “urgent requests from other buyers.”
And guess who gets all the heat? Me! My team! Not the sales team. Not production managers. Just my team. I’m the one who has to deal with angry customers every day, without any real information or support.
The company just keeps accepting more and more orders, even though we’re already maxed out. Why? Because our CEO is fixated on hitting a billion in sales. It’s like an obsession. But the reality is—we simply don’t have the capacity.
The company is laying off factory workers, yet they still expect the factory to maintain its productivity. It doesn’t make sense. How can they reduce manpower and still expect output to stay the same or even grow?
What I Truly Want
I hate this job. I’m not happy. This is my honest confession.
I just don’t want to work. I just want to rest. I want to stay home, read books, watch dramas, and write in my journal.
AWWWWWW. I’ve gotta drag myself back to work AGAIN tmr—just to survive.